Repost: Yet Again

Yet Again.

Sep 23, '07 2:06 PM for everyone

Yet again, I'm torn. I'm always torn, I think! I'm having a hard time to decide over things that are crucial in my life.

Yet again, I feel weak. Weak in the sense that it seems I really don't excel in something, like in academics, sports and entertainment (singing, dancing, drawing, writing). I'm such a L-O-S-E-R, a mere average person who cannot even solve simple math problems and was told by her professor on time "Review your grade one arithmetic!".

Yet again, I feel bad, insecure, unhappy and miserable about myself.

Yet again, I miss him, a LOT. I wish I can see him and talk to him, tell him how I really feel. Tell him how sorry I am.

Yet again, I'm bombarded with regrets and what ifs.
Like I wish I am like this or that...
Like "what if I chose to live my life in a different way?"

Yet again, I feel alone. No one can really understand how I feel.